Its reallly hard. Its so hard sometimes to deal with the smack in my face everyday. He's getting married today and not to me. But to a girl who used to be my buddy and looks just like me. Its been a year and a half. Im over him... its her i can't stand. I was supposed to be out today having a good time, with my TRUE friends distracting me from it. But instead, Im here lone this morning with no one to hug me. I need a little boost. I need the boost because that could have been me. But I keep repeating to myself... "She did me a favor. He ain't no good." But that doesn't take away all the pain. Its hard to deal with this... But I have grown as a person so much from this experience. I have seen for myself who my real friends are. So I've turned on Jilly from Philly

Don’t feel no pity for me
Cause I’m going through a couple things,
Life means change,
That’s the way it goes,goes
All my life I had a constant burning
A strong deep,desire
An aching ambiguous,yearning,yearning,
yearning

For something better
For something bigger
For something wider
For something higher
And lots of regrets
Cause I ain’t seem to found it yet
I’ve been searching around the world
Never knowing what to expect
I get sad sometimes
Yes I be mad sometimes
Cause I’m out here on the grind
Making mine
And I still can’t seem to find
What I’ve been looking for
Opened so many doors
For real,yo
I just wanna be loved…