Ok, so I came to the conclusion that “It Is”Love I Really Want…and the person I want love with is my knight & shining armor(My True Friend). Was it always like that…Ummmmm No! One thing I can say, is that if we were nothing else, we were friends, more him then me….I can admit that because he stuck by me through so much drama & trauma. He never judged me, never questioned me and never turned his back on me. Even when time passed & we did not speak, he was there for me.I just was not aware! Why, because I was so consumed with what I thought I wanted.
Even when I was going through my drama & trauma, he sat patiently and remained a true “friend”. All this time holding true to his feelings for me….Feelings, that was more then just “friendly”. After my trauma & drama he stilled remained a true “friend”, however, expressions of his love were very adamant. Where did they come from I thought to myself, is this all of a sudden….Thinking back on the 5+ years we have been friends, I now realize that his love for me has always been there, I was just too consumed to see it and feel it.

