My body is screaming for help right now. I'm tired, constipated, moody and gaining weight rapidly.

I finally had a visit with a doctor today to get a complete physical. I requested the usual tests and a couple extra that I just want to have checked out. One in particular is my thyroid. My heart is telling me the cause of all my dis-ease lately is my diet and lack of regular physical activity. I know in my heart what I need to do, but I sit her demotivated and feeling crappy about myself.

This too shall pass.

I'm praying for clarity on what is the core of these issues. I feel guilty because people around me still call me the healthy chic. I'm full of all this useful information on how to take care of the mind, body and spirit. Yet I've neglected to apply it to my life fully for at least the last year or so. And my health is suffering. My spirit suffers. My life suffers.

At this moment I know what many of the changes are that need to be made. I need to muster up the strength to just do it. I need to find more support on sticking with is. Because at home my Kingman does not seem to posses the determination to follow closely with me on this journey. And I see his health and body suffer and wish I could do more to get him to a place where he is treating himself better. But the focus now must me on myself.

My prayer is that I can be the change and encourage him through action.

Sisters pray for my health and strength right now.

Bless.