Last Sunday I visited my grandmother and me being a Hebrew Israelite, I usually don't go to church but this time i did. The pastor used an analogy we all use about being a butterfly. Going from caterpillar to butterfly. The interesting points that he brought to my attention about the phases the caterpillar goes through was the fact that once that caterpillar becomes a butterfly that butterfly can no longer eat what it once ate when it was a caterpillar. Its a new creature now. it looks different, eats differently, is different. So I ask myself, am i truly a butterfly. Have I completely given up my caterpillar ways? The answer...no, not yet. I'm still in the cocoon. Now the new question. What is being done within my cocoon that is helping me to transition into that glorious and beautiful butterfly. The answer to this...nothing extreme yet. I have not yet fasted like I planned or taken a new class. My financial state is still a mess and i have not yet met any women to even consider candidates to become future friends. The steps I have taken...I figured out why I have fallen so far behind on my dreams. I have depression issues. I just figured it out. I am taking those steps to light up my life. I'm find myself becoming a little stronger each day. I'm beginning to change the outlook I had on myself and my life in general. I'm beginning to see a new me. I do feel a transition occurring. I have not been here at YMIB in the last couple of months but you know what, i feel a lot better when I'm here, so I'm back. And that butterfly phase in my life, when I have reached my goals, when I finally feel free, seems to be a little closer than i ever imagined.