I feel a profound sense of peace right now. I'm no longer worried about this choice, I'm simply letting it unfold. Talking to friends, boyfriend and family have brought me immense comfort as well as confirmed what I know in my heart. It's not yet time for me to act, I'm still called to think clearly and be still. In the meantime, I'm writing so I can understand it all.
Is it “giving up” to go back home?
Depends on what your definition of
Giving
Up
Is
I don’t think of it as
Giving up
More like
Letting
Go
Of one dream for another
Libra lady
Places her life on the scales
And finds
That one
Reality
Holds more weight
Means more
Than she ever knew
Do I regret the journey?
Never
It was needed
To grow
Strong
Appreciate
The beauty
Right before my eyes
To look at love
Life
All over again
This place is lovely
So much to experience
So much happening
But
I turned around
And realized
That somewhere
In all my running around
I grew up...
I followed a dream
That delighted my 23 year-old self
She is at peace now
And here I stand
A woman
On the verge of
Everything she ever dreamed of
But didn’t know
She couldn’t live without
I know now
Going home
Is not defeat
Has no weight of sadness
It just means
I’ve changed
And I’ll go home with
New energy
Arms open wide
To possibilities
Return to that little spot in the oak tree
That me
And my love
Carved out
Years ago
Only now it is glowing
