"How can you just quit your good job, give up your 4bd, 2ba home and move to another state away from your family where you don't know a soul? Have you lost your mind?" That's what I heard from my friends and family. "What was i supposed to do?" I asked. The city had become so vulgar with DL men, black on black crime, drugs, infidelity, and having a stressful job didn't help the situation at all. I found myself not being able to eat, and I was only weighing 135lbs @ 5'6'', I didn't have much to lose and when I drove that big 24ft Ryder cross country I was weighing 98lbs. Literally dying from not being able to eat...gagging if I took a 4th bite of food. So what was I suppose to do? Was I supposed to start taking depression medication, to deal with the putrid of the city and the stress of my job?
In God's Hands
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In God's Hands
Have you heard of all the side effects from taking depression medication. Just to be able to cope with what's depressing you? Now you have more depressing you with the uncomfortable side effects of the medication. I don't think so, especially if you know what it is, then you are not helpless in the matter.
My medication was my belief in God and his guidance. He told me to leave that wicked city, go west and start a new life. He told me that I had done all that I could for humanity there and it was time for me to live my dream and if I'm obediant it will happen. he told me that I will meet the right people to help me get the word out about " Dreams of a Bushmaster", the first book in the Bushmaster Triology. He told me that I didn't endure years of suffering and pain in vain, that it was time for me to move on to help others in the ways that he sees fit. It was time for me to embrace him and let him be my pilot
I left everything that I knew, because I believe in him and trust.
My son, and I recently moved to Austin, TX. I'm a struggling author right now, barely making rent, but at least I can eat now. I'm really happy living here and so is my son. We are at peace, just like I knew. I'ts exciting to get out everyday in this city trying to hustle the rent money. I've met some very interesting, nice,and helpful people. I haven't learned how to get the internet working for me yet. If anyone has any suggestions, hit me up please. I know it's not magic and budget is 0 right now.
I'm a laid back sister, no nonsense, give it to me straight, open-minded, kind, helpful, and loves to have a good time. I self-published my first novel Dreams of a BUSHMASTER: A story of Obsession, Rejection, Power, and Control, in 2007. www.bushmasterbooks.com, please check my website out. “Dreams of a Bushmaster” is a poignant tale of a love triangle. Its’ characters are stricken by obsession, rejection, power, and control.
Thai Swannigan a virtuous, young, and beautiful anesthesiologist, held fast to her virginity in hopes of finding the perfect mate; the most powerful male, the most handsome male, and the most intelligent male. She was becoming disenchanted with the idea of finding such a man until one day, a day etched in her mind, she sees him, and he is beyond her wildest imagination. He is what she had been looking for, and saving herself for,the man who would be worthy of fathering her child. From that day forward she became obsessed with him to the point of having hot sweat drenching dreams about him making love to her, and having his child.
Little did she know that the man of her dreams, Rique´ Antonio Brazil had a dark past that haunted him every night. He was everything a woman could want well-educated with a PHD in finance, a music background with a beautiful tenor voice, charming, funny, strong hands that moved like a magician’s, analytical and sensitive. He was a woman’s man, but not any woman’s man. He studied women and learned what made them tick. He knew exactly how to get what he wanted from any woman. Rique´ was like a Karma Sutra in love making and would sometimes use his sexual power to control and manipulate women. He was a predator of the highest order.
Lin, Rique´ s ex-student and lover, the daughter of a Pentecostal bishop, determined to reclaim her position in his life after rejecting him to pursue a career as a flight attendant. For many years she regretted her decision and was persistent in her search for him. Then one day, while attending her college homecoming game, she saw him. Unbeknownst to her he was not the same man he used to be and he was also looking for her to settle an old debt. After rekindling their friendship, she agreed to assist him on a project in order to prove herself to him. But, she became frightened and faltered and that’s where her life took the wrong turn, now her place with him was up for grabs.
Dreams of a Bushmaster will take you on an emotional roller coaster ride as you travel through the pages of this haunting love story. It begs the questions: How deep can desire go, and how far one will travel inwardly or outwardly to find it?
Dreams of a Bushmaster can be purchased @www.bushmasterbooks.com $14.95
Email:lane.bushmasterbooks@gmail.com
Soon after publication my mother was hospitalized with a stroke, she was stricken with 3 more within a 2 yr period. That set my dreams aside, because Mom comes first. This also added to my deep depression. God saw to it that my mother recovered well enough to live in an assisted family members home. She is well taken care of and still able to do for herself. God is great!
Some might call me selfish for choosing to live the life that I was born to live, I say if not now then when? If I don't live the life I was born to live then I will certainly perish in the fires of HELL! Fifty-four is no Spring Chicken!