YOU KNOW WHAT I STARTED LAST WEEK FOCUSED ON DIET AND EATING RIGHT AND TO LOSE JUST 5-8 LBS . THIS WEEK I REALIZED WHEN I AM WORRIED AND SAD AND DOWN ABOUT SOMEONE OR SOMETHING I GO INTO THIS UNCONSCIOUSNESS AND AUTOMACTICALLY WANT TO GIVE UP ON IT AND EAT WHAT EVER, BUT THEN I TELL MYSELF NO STAY FOCUSED. MY SISTER HAS BEEN SICK WITH LUPUS AND WHEN SHE IS IN SOOOOO MUCH PAIN AND DISCOMFORT I WISH I COULD TAKE HER PAIN AWAY , SHE CANT SEEM TO FIND RELIEF IN ANY WAY AND I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO TELL HER. SHE MISSED SEVERAL DAYS OF WORK BECAUSE SHE CANT EVEN GET OUT OF BED AND WALK TO THE TRAIN STATION ESPCIALLY THE BRUTAL COLD IN NY, SO SHE'S BEEN CALLING ME FOR COMFORT ALL DAY THIS WEEK. ONCE I HANG UP I FEEL ACHY INSIDE WHICH I CONFUSE FOR HUNGER AND START FORGETTING ABOUT MY DIET I REALIZE THAT . SO WHAT I DECIDED TO DO IS TO GET OUT THE HOUSE AND GO THE STORES , OR BOOK STORE , ANYWHERE TO GET MY MIND CLEAR. ITS HARD. BUT I KNOW I CAN DO IT, THE WEATHER HERE IN OHIO DOESNT HELP EITHER WITH THE GREY DAYS DEPRESSING. ) :