My deepest gratitude goes out to those who prayed for me. The Creator heard and answered. I'm finding the strength within and outside of myself to stay motivated. Suddenly my Kingman has made a turn for the better and is fully supporting my efforts for better living. The energy is certainly more pleasant when we are both in agreement. My little one only knows that he's going to the lake more often so he's elated.

Today my body i sore, but it makes me smile because I know it's a sign of good things to come.

My body is screaming for help right now. I'm tired, constipated, moody and gaining weight rapidly.

I finally had a visit with a doctor today to get a complete physical. I requested the usual tests and a couple extra that I just want to have checked out. One in particular is my thyroid. My heart is telling me the cause of all my dis-ease lately is my diet and lack of regular physical activity. I know in my heart what I need to do, but I sit her demotivated and feeling crappy about myself.

This too shall pass.

I'm praying for clarity on what is the core of these issues. I feel guilty because people around me still call me the healthy chic. I'm full of all this useful information on how to take care of the mind, body and spirit. Yet I've neglected to apply it to my life fully for at least the last year or so. And my health is suffering. My spirit suffers. My life suffers.

Yesterday, I went home and made some boca burgers for the family. Then the rest of the night I either crocheted or watched tv. Heroes was on and I love that show. After that I IM'd a little bit then went to bed.

I had a bad dream last night and I woke up all sweaty and icky. It's a little bit difficult at night sometimes since my Kingman works the 3rd shift. I love sleeping next to him and having someone there to wake up to when I have an unpleasant dream.

I think it's time to burn some sage in the new apartment.

Before bed I accomplished 5 solid push ups. But I had to do the modified push ups on my knees. Tonite I'll do more push ups. Maybe I can work my way up to 10. Then I'll do some stretching and breathing exercises to relax my body and mind. And meditate for a little bit. After my Kingman leaves from work the apartment is quiet and still. It's sort of my moment to myself. I will utilize this time for relaxation and centering myself before I sleep. Hopefully that will ward off that negative energy seeping into my slumber.

As I continue to incorporate positive health habits I realize the the old habits are harder to break than I give them credit for. Randomly snacking at work is such a mindless thing that I do. Little treats, here and there. The next thing I know I'm salivating over a huge cinnamon roll. Mmmm, with pecans....

I started keeping a recipe book full of tasty vegetarian and vegan dishes. I've got to keep eating and cooking interesting for myself and my family if we are to get back to a vegetarian diet. I want to start adding some treats to that book. At least I can control what goes into it. I can substitute honey, or soy milk where applicable. I can better limit my consumption of dairy products. At home it's actually quite easy to control these things, when eating food (or junk) prepared by outside sources It's a struggle. So at some point this week I'm going to kick this thing off by making some peanut butter cookies. It's basically a cup of brown sugar (i actually use a little less), a cup of peanut butter and one egg. They were a hit back when I was on my baking spree. So simple to make and my Lil Prince can join in on the fun.