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Giving up

Giving up is hard to do
When you really love someone
Giving up .... so hard to do...

Donny Hathaway

Its hard to do...damn near impossible, so it seems. He is like my favorite song, food, and color. I love this man. I ask myself repeatedly do I have to give him up. Do I deny myself the pleasure of having him knowing that he may never submit to me. YES, I said submit, not to be confused with commit. Two similar words with different meanings. I want my man to submit to me. To do away with all his hurt and pain, regrets, disappointments, fears, insecurities... and just give himself to me in his raw and pure form. Does that make any since? Is a man capable of doing that? I am exposed right now. One could say I have been flipped inside out and everything, including my soul is visible to this brotha. (SIDEBAR: "Don't you know if a man could take and flip his self inside out he 'd fall out and die if he sees the shit that goes on" Ghostface IRONMAN ) that was for all my Hip Hop sista's....anyway...
Thats the state of mind I am in right now. I love him but I love me and I love him and I live us... so that just brings me back to Donny... givin up is hard to do. So for right now I'm just gonna see this process through and pray for a peaceful ending where both of us can be in bliss.

Angie B